Where I'm At Now

Ok, so now you've got the history of this whole nightmare. Lets bring you up to date to where it stands as of today.

Last Thursday, I received a call from my WCB case manager. Amongst other things, she tells me that in the last letter that she received from my specialist, I no longer show any signs or symptoms of RSD/CRPS. So now, she doesn't understand why I'm in pain, since that's not an issue any longer. I question if she's read the letter correctly, as there are no signs of RSD in my LEFT arm, which was what the question was at my last appt. She proceeds to tell me that I'm being sent for a psych assessment. She also questions how I'm able to manage parenting 3 children, yet not be able to work.

I'm in such shock that I don't even know wth to say to her.

After getting off the phone with her, I called my specialist. At NO TIME has he EVER stated that my RSD/CRPS has magically vanished, nor has he EVER doubted the diagnosis. Yes, he DID state that there are no signs in the LEFT arm, but its never ever been a question about my right. Indeed, in his last letter, he stated that he considers me unfit for nursing attendant duties, and has serious doubts about my fitness for any meaningful employment. He's sending her a letter to yet again explain the situation.

Funny how the case mgr says everyone recommends my return to work.

So, that's where we stand...she blatantly lied, and her questioning my ability to parent yet not work is way over the line.

Contacted my union rep, he's taking this up with the VP at WCB.

Then, today, I get a copy of the letter she's sent to the psychiatrist for referral. In it, she states that she wants to know what dx is appropriate, if there are any previous psychiatric issues that are impacting my current condition, etc. So, she's STATING that I have some sort of diagnosis...and all of this is because SHE claims my RSD has vanished. So, WCB gets to question my mind, force me to have a psych assessment...all on a freaking LIE.

I feel violated. Since this whole crap happened, I've been poked, prodded, stretched, bent, stripped, xrayed, MRI'd...and now they get to look at my MIND too? I'm allowed no refusal, as that would be a reason to cut off my benefits. I'm allowed no privacy, dignity, sense of self that the WCB isn't allowed to put their paws all over.

Oh, and the other delightful aspect...if she doesn't like what the first psych says, she's already mentioned another assessment...and the potential to be shipped to a pain clinic hours away for 5-7 wks...meaning that I'd have to live in a hotel for the duration. Not only does that completely screw with my family, but gee, how the hell am I gonna manage washing my own hair? Putting it up in the am? My husband does that for me now...how the **** am I gonna do that on my own when my flipping arm can't raise that high???

I feel so completely violated, powerless, offended, angry, threatened, hurt...I don't even know where to start.

And this isn't even getting into the delightful trip to the ER on Friday night.